.. No.

No. I'm not a nice girl. I'm not that smart, pretty girl who has a pure heart. I'm not that girl who can tell jokes and make everyone laugh. I'm not good at starting a conversation, and I don't try to keep in touch with old "friends". I don't always text back. I don't let random people enter my life, and I don't let them go easily too. I don't want to smile all the time, I honestly don't want to be surrounded by a lot of people, even if they're my friends. I don't like to go out with "friends", I'd rather go all alone. I love those moments when I can find a place for myself, with no one besides me. It feels amazing. I don't have to start a conversation, I don't have to make someone smile, I don't have to ask back, I don't have to make sure that nobody gets bored, and most of all, I can finally think about myself, only myself, and not with the world. I'm sick of thinking about anyone else but me. Being alone is like an expensive day spa for me.

But one thing for sure, I'm great at hiding all of the feelings above inside.