another sad story.

She cried her eyes out. She didn't want to cry, but she couldn't help it. It wasn't the type of cry that makes you feel better afterwards; it was the type that makes you feel pathetic. She didn't just cry over her life; she cried over everything. Over her sick sister, her mother, her father, the children in Africa, and even the beggar she met yesterday morning. She also cried over him. The guy who -- maybe, just maybe -- used to care about her. She cried because she felt really stupid for actually thought that she meant something for someone. She just realized that she wasn't that important; that everyone, sooner or later, would walk out of her life without any hesitation. Silly me, she thought to herself. Since when did people actually care about her? Well, if they did care, her father wouldn't leave her when she was just a child, her mother wouldn't have a lot of boyfriends, her "friends" would understand her, and that guy wouldn't give up on her. She was sick of everything. She couldn't find any more reason to stay alive. As she wiped her tears away, she grabbed a knife and hoping to leave this world right then.

idek.

I'm so bored and I don't know what to do with my life so I'm just gonna do this. Ugh. No wonder I have less than 10 followers.

• 1. had sex? uhm no...
• 2. bought condoms? no people would question it
• 3. gotten pregnant? noooo
• 4. failed a class? no oh gosh no
• 5. kissed a boy? in my dream, yeah. is it included?
• 6. kissed a girl? im not katy perry so no
• 7. had a job? nopeee
• 8. left the house without my wallet? yeah, whenever im with my mom
• 9. bullied someone on the internet? no. thats a very cruel thing and it does hurt people, you know. you're talking to a person, not a computer.
• 10. sexted? with cleverbot. once. on accident. wtf tho.
• 11. had sex in public? wouldnt it be awkward
• 12. smoked weed? nah its not my thing
• 13. smoked cigarettes? tried once. choked.
• 14. smoked a cigar? uhm no
• 15. drank alcohol? tried it several times and i liked it but i dont drink.
• 16. been to a wedding? a lot of times?
• 17. been on the computer for 5 hours straight? bitch please, im a hardcore internet fan.
• 18. watched tv for 5 hours straight? even more.
• 19. been late for school? lol yeah thats what i do all the time
• 20. kissed in the rain? no but that'd be really, really sweet:)
• 21. showered with someone else? my sister, yeah. years ago lol
• 22. been outside my home country? unfortunately, no</3
• 23. been on a road trip longer than 5 hours? yeah, several times
• 24. had lice? ughhh yeah:(
• 25. gotten my heart broken? do you realize who you're talking to?! HELL YES!
• 26. had a credit card? i wish i had
• 27. been to a professional sports game? i dont like, i dont do sports
• 28. broken a bone? no
• 29. been unhappy about my weight? not really. i kinda want to be "chubby" anyway
• 30. won a trophy? yeah several times when i was younger and smarter
• 31. cut myself? almost
• 32. been on a diet? phuck diet.
• 33. rode in a taxi? i dont live under a rock, you know
• 34. stayed up for 24 hours or more? yeah. im a nocturnal btw
• 35. been to a concert? only some small jazz performances..
• 36. had a crush on someone of the same sex? nope. but if i was a guy, i'd probably have.
• 37. had braces? wanted to but it's too mainstream now.. plus i'm scared it'll hurt
• 38. wore make up? who needs make ups when you dont even go outside
• 39. lost my virginity before I was 16? in a fanfic, yeah lmao
• 40. kissed someone a different race than myself? no. and whats with the question? it doesnt matter what race you kiss as long as you love them. ugh.
• 41. Snuck out of the house? nope :/
• 42. had oral sex? nooope
• 43. dyed my hair? i like it this way
• 44. met someone famous? yeah. a lot of times. but they're not even Michael Jackson or 1D so i was like whatevs
• 45. been on vacation? of course duh
• 46. been on a boat? idk. wait. no i guess. but maybe i have.... when i was like 7 or something?
• 47. been on an airplane? yeah
• 48. prank called someone? omg yesss and it was awesome
• 49. taken a pregnancy test? why should i
• 50. been suspended from school? noo

Happy Birthday Greyson Chance!!

Happy Birthday Greyson Chance!! by sarahfhana on Polyvore

Unconscious. I'm not sure about my feeling. And how is that even possible?!

















And I keep staying away. I keep turning my face around as if I didn't saw them (them, because I'm not gonna tell you who that person, and what they gender is.). I keep ignoring them. I don't text them. I don't talk to them. It hurts. It still hurts.

So my sister decided to edit a pic of my and my friends...

Original pic

TROLLOLOL PIC!!!!

vintage

vintage by sarahfhana featuring a vintage lace dress

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im over it. im over him. i dont care anymore. i dont spare a minute to check his text anymore. i dont wait for him. i dont wish for him to come back. i dont want it the way it used to be. i know it never meant to last. i dont regret it. im okay. im fine. im good. im done. theres no use of being sad. theres no need to analyze it. i dont need any reason for this. everything's crystal clear. and it's time for me to move on.