Life's a Game.

Friday, June 22, 2012

It's funny how I'm always there when people need me, but they can't do the same for me. I'm not a saint you know. In time, I might just hold it against you.

Cuz I'm bored.

1: Real Name? Sarah Fauziyyah Hana
2: Current crush!? If I told his name everything would be screwed.. but his initial is FL
3: Addiction? Lion, Music.
4: How tall am I? Around 160 cm
5: Relationship status? Uhm, single.
6: Girls I trust? My best fraandss<3
7: Boys I trust? Some boys at osis.. not all of them though.
9: Current mood? Boredddd as hell
10: When was the last time I did something for the 1st time? Idk, last year?
11: Confession I never really care about people...
12: Who I miss? The answer would be embarrassing, but one of them is Michael Jackson<3
13: Who I last hugged? My mom...
14: Who understands me? no freaking one.
15: Someone who is always there for me Like i know.
16: Last Text? My friend Auliya
17: Who’s a stranger? Somebody that I used to know hahaha
18: Who makes me laugh the most? My friends
19: Who I do the craziest stuff with? Vika and Assyifaa
20: Who makes me smile? Person on number 2................
21: What am i listening to? Currently Linkin Park
22: Turn on’s? Lips biting, sharp eyes haha
23: Turn offs? uhm.
24. Bestfriends? Vika and Assyifaa!!!
26: Second confess? I swear a lot. Like, a looooottttt
27: What I hate? some teachers, fake promises, sound of screaming, people who remember everything about my sister but nothing about me, people who use me for their own good, awful music, bieber and beliebers (sorry but thats the truth), goin to school and dealing with people who underestimate me, some bitches at school, being unable to give my opinion
28: Who’s annoying? my sister sometimes, all the teachers, bitches at school.
29: Favorite Sex position? hahahahaah
30: Last person to give you butterflies? person on number 2 :/

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Thursday, June 21, 2012

"I can't trust many people these days. People tend to use me for their own good, tend to lie to me, and sometimes even leave me for better people. I can't trust people, after all that's happened to me. I'm not clueless, I just know what to expect when people say they care for me. I just don't see the point in trusting people when I know they're eventually going to just use me for their own good."

- kushandwizdom.tumblr.com

heh.

Hi. Sorry for my (again!) late post. I just finished my final exams and I got my report card this morning, so you know, I was really busy with studying stuffs and blah blah blah. But well, let's get started on our new topic.

You see, I've read one of my friend's blog, and it was........... AWESOME. No, really. I almost never compliment a blog because I've seen a lot of blogs which aren't so original. You know, like they copied and pasted an article and posted it on their blogs. But this one, is different.

So... Her blog is particularly about her and her ex, how she still can't move on even after a long time, how those tears keep coming out of her eyes, and how she misses that guy so damn much. Sounds boring, eh? I know. But believe me, her story is NOT just another teen love story.

Maybe because she describes every pain so deeply that we can also feel her pain, or maybe her pain is actually that bad. But, I believe, when someone writes something that can make you feel what they feel, then one is a true writer. That I found on my friend's blog. Every word she writes makes me wanna cry, too. Maybe it's just a ridiculous heart-breaking, caused by a not-so-cute guy, basically not something to cried over, but she made it seems so desperately sad AND serious at the same time. If it wasn't about her, I could have laughed and probably called her an attention seeker. But I can't. Yeah, I guess she's really good at writing. She's got talent. I know it. I'm pretty sure that if she made a novel, she'd be so damn popular.

Anyway... After I read my friend's blog, I'm kinda wondering. What if actually everyone's problem is a serious thing? I mean, look at the fourth paragraph of this article. I could just laugh at her because I'd thought that her problem is just a cheesy, little one. But it isn't to her, right? And what if when we say "Get over it, it's not a big deal," it's actually a big deal and even we can't get over it? What if the size of a problem depends on how strength the person is? If that's so, yes, I do feel guilty and... selfish.

Look at me. All this time, all I care about is me and how big my problems are. I keep crying (ha ha ha like I can cry) at the same thing and declaring that my problems are like the biggest ones. How stupid is that sound? I'm not saying that my problems are no problem, because I wouldn't cry if they weren't, but they're indeed not the biggest nor the hardest. They're hard as heck, but I'm not the only one who needs to face them. There are seven billion people on Earth, and, compared to them, I'm just a single piece that anyone wouldn't give a f*** about (sorry).

I need to stop being so selfish and complain about every s*** (SORRY, I couldn't help it) I'm going through. I need to be like a..... boy, who doesn't really complain about everything and act like there's nothing wrong.

K, bye for now. xx